In my relationship I find myself ethereal and loving every moment of it. Some days more than others. But then, there are days like today. There are days in which I have no idea where we stand. I ask myself, “why are you still with him?” Honestly, I don’t know where him and I stand. I’ve been waiting, but for what? What have I been waiting for, why am I waiting for him to change? I just feel stupid looking for something that is not there.